what 'if's' and 'mayb's' running thru my head.......
sometymes i just wish those words were never said....
and i wish i culd just disappear and b alone instead....
i shuld hav lissined to myself when it said tht life i lead shuldnt b led.
2 late ,i ve jumped too far in.
i ve committed far too many a sin...
and i ve already cut,sliced and tortured my own skin.
i just long to feel safe ,secured and happy,..
within i ve nevr been quite in this way....
Second guessing myself, trying not to become anoder cliche
Pulling bak and thinking thngs thru,but today relli isnt the day.
The day to tell myself tht evrythgn is goin to b ok today
It doznt lead to anythng more but my soul slowly and sadly dying.
cloze my eyes and imaging myself free and flying
Wanting so bad to get so far.widout even tryng
Watching the world come out and show me a sine......of 'u know wht u want', so stop using tht line.
yeah, i know wht i want, its a piece of wht makes me reach for cloud nine.
somethng tht wuld never ever b mine.
So u say i hate myself far too much
and when i feel ur skin, i ve got an unworthy touch.
When all i relli want is to leave my dark and gloomy hutch..
I relli just do want to start standing on my own
and break of this invisible crutch...
I want to leave my dead life a million miles b hind.....
and want my voice to become one of a kind.....
I m so sick of living my life so confined...
I need to get out.taste the world....and just completlty unwind
But then i remember sometymes my head confuse wht i want and wht i got.
Tht dreaming so far,and reaching for untouchables
will only tie me in knots
Sneaking my sins thru the door, i m always going to get caught.....
And i ll always say it was as simple az "oOOops i forgot!!'
i knoe tht evrythng i do is wrong.
i m not good enuff to b tht strong
and i cant find anyplace where i relli belong.....
may b i shuld hav just given up all along.